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Not Without My Ghosts

by The Amity Affliction

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I am the boy who cried Wolf So when you find me I'll be rotted out I'll be the king without a crown I'll be the fool, The fool who you could live without Show me your god Does he come with a clip Are his teeth made of steel Is there death in his grip? Throw me down the well Let it swallow me whole Pull me into hell Throw me down the well Let it swallow me whole I see the wolves by the pack I count my blessings, Blessings By the knives in my back If I had your god your god in my hands I'd be dead tonight I had glorious plans Show me your god
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IS IT HEAVEN UP THERE, BECAUSE IT'S HELL DOWN HERE. I CAN FEEL YOU WRITHE, I FEEL THE TEARS WELL IN YOUR EYES - STREAMING DOWN YOUR FACE. YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE SUN IN DAYS YOUR BREAKING HEART, YOUR DAILY TEARS - I'M WATCHING YOU IN SLOW MOTION. A BROKEN DREAM, A DEATHLY CALM, THERE'S NOTHING ON THE HORIZON. I CAN FEEL YOUR FEARS AND I CAN TASTE YOUR TEARS, IS IT HEAVEN UP THERE, BECAUSE IT'S HELL DOWN HERE. I CAN SEE YOUR SORROW, I HOPE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. IS IT HEAVEN UP THERE, BECAUSE IT'S HELL DOWN HERE. LIKE A SNAKE I TIRE THE COLD DARK CLOUDS THEY STEAL MY LIGHT. YOU'RE SO DISTANT NOW A WORLD AWAY, I'M WINDING DOWN. YOUR BREAKING HEART, YOUR DAILY TEARS - I'M WATCHING YOU IN SLOW MOTION. A BROKEN DREAM, A DEATHLY CALM, THERE'S NOTHING ON THE HORIZON. NO MORE NIGHTMARES. NO MORE DEAD ENDS. NO MORE HEARTBREAK. NO MORE DEAD FRIENDS.
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Fade Away 03:45
THE GLASS AROUND ME BEGAN TO CRACK I CAN'T LET THEM IN, NO I CAN'T TURN BACK. WHEN DARKNESS FALLS I CALL OUT YOUR NAME I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT YOU WERE NEVER TO BLAME. I'VE BEEN LIVING IN A FOG IT SEEMS CAUSE I DON'T FEEL ALIVE, AND I'M NOT IN A DREAM. FADE AWAY, FADE AWAY, I WANT TO FADE AWAY. SICK OF LIVING IN THIS MISERY, DON'T WANT TO BE ALIVE, I WANT ETERNAL SLEEP. FADE AWAY, FADE AWAY, I WANT TO FADE AWAY. ARE YOU THE ONE WHO HAS HELD ME DOWN? MY OWN REFLECTION SCREAMS I START TO DROWN. WORN DOWN BY EACH DAY, IT'S ALL THE SAME I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT YOU WERE NEVER TO BLAME. JUST LET ME FADE AWAY.
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IT HAUNTS ME, DOES IT HAUNT YOU TOO, THE SIZE OF THE WAITING FIELD? THEY SAY SORROW'S COLD BUT THE SORROW WILL GO AS LONG AS YOU'RE WAITING HERE. I AM HAUNTED AND I FEAR THAT THERE IS NOTHING TO BE DONE. THEY SAY YOU CAN, YOU CAN BEAT IT - BEAT THE SETTING OF THE SUN, BUT I AM YET TO FIND A WAY TO BEAT THE PAIN. THEY SAY THE PAIN WILL GO OR SO I HAVE BEEN TOLD, BUT I'M HAUNTED HERE AS I SIT AND FOREVER WAIT BETWEEN DEATH AND THE SETTING SUN. THERE'S NO LIGHT AT THE END, JUST MORE DARKNESS MY FRIEND AND I'M HAUNTED HERE AS I SIT AND FOREVER WAIT BETWEEN DEATH AND THE SETTING SUN. IT HAUNTS ME, DOES IT HAUNT YOU TOO, THE WAY WE ALL FALL APART? I SAID SORROW'S COLD YOU SAID TOMORROW IT GOES, THEN YOU LEFT ME IN THE DARK. FIND ME A WAY OUT OF HERE THAT ISN'T JUST A LOSS OF FEAR, CAVE INTO PAIN, I NEVER LEARN. I'M TELLING YOU, YOUR HEAVEN IS GONE.
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I HEAR THEIR VOICES IN MY HEAD, I FEEL THEIR SORROW IN MY CHEST, I'VE SEEN THEM PUSHED TO THE FUCKING EDGE I SEE THE GHOSTS OF MY FRIENDS. IF THEY CAN'T MAKE IT OUT ALIVE MAYBE I TOO AM MEANT TO DIE, I AM WAITING FOR HELL TO TAKE MY SOUL. I AM DEATH, I AM UTTER FAILURE. AND I CAN'T MAKE IT OUT OF HERE, IS THIS THE END OF EVERYTHING? I AM THE NOOSE I AM THE KNOT, I AM HATE, I AM YOUR DEPRESSION. I HEAR THEIR VOICES IN MY HEAD - I SEE THE GHOSTS OF MY FRIENDS. THEY DIDN'T MAKE IT OUT ALIVE, AND I'M JUST HERE WAITING TO DIE I AM THE COWARD STANDING ON THE EDGE, THROW ME OUT I AM UTTER FAILURE. AND I CAN'T MAKE IT OUT OF HERE, IS THIS THE END OF EVERYTHING? I AM THE NOOSE I AM THE KNOT, I AM HATE, I AM YOUR DEPRESSION. DEAR GOD THAT DON'T EXIST, FLY ME OVER OCEANS WHERE MY LOVER LIVES I AM DEATH.
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YOU WILL NOT SHAKE ME. YOU WILL NOT BREAK ME. I'LL MAKE YOU FEAR ME, MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND ME MY WAY - THE VILE WAY. YOU HAVE NEVER FACED RAGE LIKE THIS. I'M HERE TO END YOU, YOU MEAN NOTHING IN MY WORLD - NOT A THING. AND IN THE END YOU ARE THE ENEMY, I'LL BE THE DEATH OF YOU. AS THE RAIN KEEPS POURING YOU'LL BE FOREVER FALLING TO A HELL OF YOUR MAKING. AS THE RAIN KEEPS POURING YOU'RE THERE FOREVER CALLING A GOD WHO'S NOT LISTENING AS THE RAIN KEEPS POURING. YOU WILL NOT SHAKE ME. YOU WILL NOT BREAK ME. NO GOD TO SAVE YOU, I'M HERE TO ERASE YOU. MY WAY - THE VILE WAY, YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN HATE LIKE THIS. YOU'VE NEVER FELT SUCH HOPELESSNESS. I'LL PUT AN END TO IT, CAUSE IN THE END - YOU ARE THE ENEMY. I'LL BE THE DEATH OF YOU. YOU'RE THE ENEMY. I'LL BE THE DEATH OF YOU. THE LAST THING YOU SEE. I AM THE ONE WHO SEES THROUGH ALL YOUR LIES, I AM THE ONE WITH THE HEART OF ICE, I AM THE ONE WHO LIVES INSIDE YOUR MIND. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO WILL PAY THE PRICE.
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HIDE FROM THE SUN AND THE DAY YET TO COME. BE SLEEPING I'LL, BE SLEEPING. HIDE FROM THE SUN, OR MY DREAMS ARE UNDONE. BE LEAVING I'LL, BE LEAVING. HIDE FROM EVERYTHING: YOU PICTURE THE END, I'M SLEEPWALKING INSTEAD - SLEEP'S ONE STEP FROM DEATH. HIDE FROM THE SUN YEAH, KEEP SLEEPWALKING KEEP MASKING THE TERROR INSIDE. SLEEPWALKING. HOW LONG WILL I BE SLEEPING OH, BE SLEEPING I'LL BE SLEEPING. HOW LONG TIL I'LL BE LEAVING OH, BE LEAVING I'LL BE LEAVING. HIDE FROM THE SUN AND THE DAY YET TO COME. BE SLEEPING I'LL, BE LEAVING. I HAVE COME UNDONE. HIDE FROM THE SUN KEEP SLEEPWALKING, KEEP MASKING THE TERROR INSIDE. SLEEPWALKING. HOW LONG WILL I BE SLEEPING OH, BE SLEEPING I'LL BE SLEEPING. HOW LONG TIL I'LL BE LEAVING OH, BE LEAVING I'LL BE LEAVING. HIDE FROM THE SUN AND THE DAY YET TO COME. BE SLEEPING I'LL, BE LEAVING. YOU DON'T SEE A WAY THROUGH, I'M SLEEPWALKING TOO, LET'S PAINT OUR WORLD BLUE. WHILE WE'RE HERE CAN WE EVER BE FREE? OFF TO THE STARS FOR ME I JUST WANT TO BELIEVE. WHILE WE'RE HERE WE'LL NEVER BE FREE, LOOK AT THE STARS WITH ME, DO YOU WANT TO BELIEVE? KEEP SLEEPWALKING KEEP MASKING THE TERROR INSIDE SLEEPWALKING
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Close To Me 03:56
DON'T COME TOO CLOSE TO ME. I DON'T WANT YOU TOO CLOSE TO ME YOU KNOW I'LL JUST TEAR YOU DOWN. LIFE MADE ME A FORTRESS OF FEAR AND I DON'T WANT YOU AROUND. YOU'RE SO FUCKING CLOSE, I'M BEGGING YOU, STOP PLAYING WITH FIRE. I AM SO LOST AND LONELY ALWAYS DESTROYING WHAT I HAVE. I AM SO LOST AND LONELY, DRAG THOSE I LOVE TOWARDS THE EDGE. I ALWAYS TRY TO HIDE FROM IT, I'M MY OWN WORST ENEMY. THE DARKNESS GROWS INSIDE OF ME JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME PLEASE. YOU'RE SO FUCKING CLOSE, I'M BEGGING YOU, STOP PLAYING WITH FIRE. I AM SO LOST AND LONELY ALWAYS DESTROYING WHAT I HAVE. I AM SO LOST AND LONELY, DRAG THOSE I LOVE TOWARDS THE EDGE. I CAN'T SEEM TO EXIST LIKE I'M REALLY ALIVE, SO SHOULD I JUST END ALL OF THIS? HIDE BEHIND MY MASK WHERE I'M ALREADY DEAD, AND YET I CAN'T JUST END IT YET. I DON'T WANT TO EXIST, BUT I HAVE TO SURVIVE FOR THE ONES I'D LEAVE BEHIND. DON'T COME TOO CLOSE TO ME.
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God Voice 03:34
I KNOW WHEN I GO THE PAIN IS OVER. I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN, CAN MAKE IT OUT ALIVE. I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN TAKE ONE MORE FUCKING DAY. SO IF I GO I KNOW THE WORLD AROUND ME HEALS I KNOW WHEN I GO THE PAIN IS OVER (AND ONLY DEATH IS WHEN YOU TRULY KNOW YOURSELF). AM I THE GOD VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD? AM I THE VOICE THAT SAYS YOU'RE BETTER OFF DEAD'? AND I'M NOT SURE RIGHT NOW IF I CAN MAKE IT OUT, IT'S NEARLY BEEN TWO YEARS SUPPRESSING ALL MY TEARS, DEFINED BY ALL MY PAIN BURIED UNDER MY FEAR I KNOW WHERE YOU WENT THE PAIN IS OVER (AND ONLY DEATH IS WHEN YOU TRULY KNOW YOURSELF). AM I THE GOD VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD? AM I THE VOICE THAT SAYS YOU'RE BETTER OFF DEAD'? I CAN'T BE WHO YOU WANT ME TO BE.
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WHEREVER I MAY GO IT'S NOT WITHOUT MY GHOSTS. THEIR BODIES DRAG BEHIND ME CHAINED TO BOTH MY WRISTS, NO MATTER HOW I FIGHT I'M NEVER DONE WITH IT. I HAVE TO CARRY ON, BUT NOT WITHOUT MY GHOSTS. WHEREVER I MAY GO IT'S NOT WITHOUT MY GHOSTS. A QUIET DAILY WAR, NO SIGN AHEAD OF PEACE. LOOK ALIVE FOR ALL MY FRIENDS AND TRY TO HIDE THE GRIEF. I HAVE TO CARRY ON, BUT NOT WITHOUT MY GHOSTS. ONE TO CARRY SADNESS ONE TO CARRY FEAR, ONE TO CARRY PANIC AND ONE TO CARRY TEARS. ONE FOR MY DEPRESSION AND ONE WHO WANTS ME DEAD, ONE TO HIDE MY HOLLOW HEART AND SOME I'VE NEVER MET.

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released May 12, 2023

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